23 February 2010
skipping the first act
do you ever feel like you just want to be lovers with someone, immediately? Skip the first dates, the awkward silences, and the games you intend not to play (but still do), in hopes that someone will find you interesting and lovable? I have been feeling way too impatient to start over, which is terrible, so what options am I left with?
Is it totally inappropriate to have a date start in the bedroom, and then afterwards, engage in the sweetest pillow talk and then make plans to have dinner or drinks or even order in and just eat in bed? Or better yet, go out for an organic breakfast after making out and listening to records all morning! Or is it better to wonder about the sexual chemistry and prolong everything just to pretend you aren't a total whore?
There is this scene in Broken English when Parker Posey and that french guy just become lovers, and truly intimate, and they lose each other only to find each other again on a train in Paris. Sign me up for that, and not some shitty first date that feels like a job interview (and I know they aren't all like that, but lately, it seems to be that way for me).
Anyways, this is the sort of thing I am thinking about while watching the snow fly outside my 4rth floor window this morning. The sky is falling and I am finally coming to terms with my genuine fear of being alone/ letting someone down/ being hurt, so I am only thinking about the fun part.